It's been a moment ...
I suppose I could start with politics; but no ... lookin' back at it all; I'm surprised and glad that I survived ... from many perspectives, that wasn't the goal.
The kid is good; and that's what matters more than anything else, by leagues.
She graduated!!! Two years early, for those counting.
Major was Sociology, minor in Criminology ... ... jajajajaja.
Poetree ... roots baby!
She's a busy girl too, damn!
I'm happy for her, I suppose that's why I haven't written anything, or been concerned about it ... children can have that calming content affect, or at least she does for me ... she is well, my life, therefore, is a success ... that's it, it's that easy.
There is quite literally nothing left to prove.
Because that is what was specfically denied me ... which is honestly just so crazy to think about ... and the entire system and community tie themselves in knots with lies to say it wasn't them ... but a leaf does not fall without the awareness of the entire tree.
Khalil Gibran ~ Free Palestine. From the river to the sea; Palestine will be free.
Oh look ... we're back to politics ... fack!
Life is good though, I'm living with two college girls; both of whom are studying Sociology ... it's pleasant and that's wonderful.
I finally figured it out ... oh yea, I don't talk to the woman who gave birth to me anymore.
Eh ... she isn't really the nurturing type ... is what it is ... here I am, nonetheless.
So it is also odd to think of all that did happen as quite literally the best case scenario.
Either way, I'm in no place to be mad; I got two new students this week, while both of my Spanish students are enthusiatic about getting more classes. The next step really just is marketing; and I'm slowly acquiring monies for that.
Oh yea, I got back into tech, am helping out with friends over at Unicorn Riot ~ which is really just such a blessing, tbh. It's 10 hours per week, but paid in dollars which still have value; we'll see how long that all lasts ... but yea ... I'm at a place for things to flourish which is also a pleasant feeling.
OMG, I have 10 songs on the ukulele too ... I'm super excited about a few of the latest ones ... I'm feeling more able to fall into what the songs seek to be; they are not mine, and hopefully I can be a thankful conduit.
Music really is such a blessing and such magic, and to have her and my child in my life.
Though life did give me more ... life gave me a friend in Mamo Celedonio, and path back to our own ancestry; no matter what anyone else wants to say, or thinks that they can ... no ... this is between my ancestors and his families'.
To be able to give that level of security and awareness and love to my own child, so that she need not ever question who she is, nor where she is from.
Best case scenario, ya know.
I suppose I'll start sharing a bit more of what I'm watching on YouTube as well; I'm continuing on the path of moderating my content intake ... it is fascinating to observe, being both at the epicenter of ideals and the margins of social acceptance.
I say this not out of arrogance, but as a perspective on a specific set of calculations.
Though what comes next ... I drop WhatsApp from my personal phone, only go with Signal; maybe eventually be able to transfer off of Android; Commodore is releasing a deGoogled phone.
Ok, we need to talk about the elephant in the room; Isunreal is creating an absolute mess of the world. And it is not a country but rather an organization of people ... that I personally fear are people with whom the likes of Amy Klobuchar is affiliated and acting in-concert.
This is actually a global issue; and a concerning one at that.
We need to normalize critical thought and discourse; that is the only truth path to community.
How do we do that ... by learning to be more vocal ourselves, to dare to break boundaries of politeness in an effort to connect through what is real.
That's really where it all starts.
Though that also seems a solid place to end for this message.
I do aspire to write more, as much more is happening, and I want to document as well as start to raise funds.
So that means I'll be more directly encouraging you to become a founding 1000 member of DigiSnaxx. For as little as fifty-cents per month; I'm at a place where I feel more enabled to work, and I'm so excited for it!
I've got a few calendars to fix; though the DoD contract scraper is still working.
Sigue la lucha; gracias a Dios, a la Tierra, al Agua y a la Luz.
peaces, c.
Canin Carlos
Oh yea, that thing I figured out ... I've been so abused by women in my life ... that honestly ... I'm actually done with them ... I'm not interested in males any physical way – not rejection, just not that interest ... but yup ... that's actually what it is ... all respect, but actually stay away – I've got no need for games, and ... yea, and no need to talk in extreme either, I'm gonna back away slowly, but ... at this point, I'm not unable to strike back if pushed into a corner – that level of abuse ... taking my child, and making extra-ordinary efforts of tarnish my character ... it's not funny ... it's the product of sincere, social, psychological, emotional and spiritual abuse; that eventually involved a large community working in concert with each other.
So I'm also thinking of writing something up for publishing ... because Latinidad has the chance to break the mold of whiteness, I think ... if it wants to.
While Manifesting Empathy is actually the path I found to acceptance of my own self ... I mean, the idea was for my daughter to reject me as well, thereby sealing the deal they had made to destroy me as a redeemable human being ... crazy to think about, but yea ... accurate.
That level of manipulation, conscious or unconsciously ... it would be difficult for anyone to admit to consciously doing ... but reality really is able to speak for itself.
Anywho, at least there is music ... though I suppose, this is also a song that speaks to this ... I'm not sure exactly what I'm going to do with all of the snippets, though as songs, they are complete within themselves, though also seeds sufficient to sprout mature creations.
